A little something I was writing on the 9th:
Lately I've been thinking about what sort of person I want to be; mindful, graceful, thoughtful, purposeful, gentle, kind, strong, silly, crazy, creative, calm, determined, passionate, fiery, free.
Sometimes I fear I'm a little too transparent in voicing my thoughts, experiences, and ideals -- worried that in doing so it somehow takes away from the things I want to be, the things I am, the things I could be.
The thing is, I think there are so many simple, amazingly infinite things that go into the make up of each individual. It's okay, expected even that different aspects of a person surface in a given day. There's nothing wrong with that, we all have different seasons, and different weather in the swirling whirl that makes up the very essence of you.
Some days I am jittering, restless, agitated. I want to unfold, stretch out, DO something, (yesterday). Other days, like today I am calm, cheerful, collected, loving, I want to reach out, and hug people, tell them how much I love and miss them. I got to reach out, and connect with some of my favorite north country ladies today, (you know who are). And I want to shout it from the rooftops: You guys rock, I love you! Thank you for spending time with me, it made my day.
There are days I might be embarrassed by myself, by my rambling, and quirks. Such is the weather of life. Today isn't one of them. I am thankful for today's.
These are the days to be celebrated.